in response to getfreedental... thank you so much for the info...i know that god has taken great care of me and sometimes in my natural self forgets that my life is in his hands. He knows what is best even if i think its not. I have been humbled. My trouble is my gain in the end. I do think that there is a reason for everything that happens, good and bad. A learning experience, an act of simple love however big or small teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters in christ. At times i worry and i need to work at that! Even your words of encouragement lighten the load. I have been blessed in so many ways. We all need to give thanks even when it seems like things arent going as we would like. Bless your heart for answering!